a strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen.
It’s in the strangest places that God nudges you to look up words to show you what you are lacking. Or maybe just what you choose to not acknowledge.
I’m probably the only one that has been feeling like society has set the standard for women. That we should be independent, strong and without the need (or desire) of a man. Or that we should be wives, bare foot and pregnant making 3 meals a day for our families, cleaning up the house, clothes perfectly intact with a smile on our face. But we can’t be both.
There is no such thing as having both.
In my eyes, the first standard punched the latter in the face and I never dared myself to desire it. Yes, I may talk about it every once in a while, but in my alone time, I never gave myself the green light to truly desire it.
to pray on it.
Inadequacies, flawed men and broken hearts kept me from wanting what most girls desired. Love. Marriage. A baby carriage.
So I dreamed to take on the world, without a man and without a child. Because I believed in the lie that it wasn’t for me, it was for her, her and her.
Because independent women didn’t need anyone and should be so goal oriented that they don’t have time to want anything else than setting the world of fire.
It was in the hotel room of Orlando, Florida that God showed me different.
In my pursuit to desire God and know his heart is where I find the very desires he has for me. Being in close relationship with the King means to share the same vision.
Desires from God are good, pure, and purposeful. And he showed me that the desires that I was beginning to experience were from the good soils of his heart. Kingdom minded. Fulfilling. Perfectly Okay.
I had to give myself permission to D E S I R E
To hear wedding bells and slay giants
To be barefoot and pregnant and help bare thirsty, dry bones to the King of fulfilling waters
To immerse my heart in one of a child and in Christ-centered agendas.
Because it’s all perfectly okay.
I’m learning now that the heart of God is calling for women to grow in the identity that he desires for them.
To be beautiful, resilient world changers, world thinkers, loving wives and nurturing mothers. That the delicate, bold and beautiful design of a woman is something to embrace, enjoy and cultivate. Not ignore or suppress.
Why? Because it comes from Him and it’s perfectly okay.