Day 30: Write a letter to your future mate saying whatever you want to say
Well hello there,
My heart is all at a mess right now as to what exactly I should say to you. But here is what I have:
I’m doing my best to not wait for you. I don’t want you to find me looking on the web for you or being pushed on some random blind date. I want it to be more than that. Me and You digging deep into the heart of God and some how, some way (comically I’m sure) we look at each other and link together perfectly.
Right now, I’m not presentable enough to meet you, not in regards to clothing or hair but what’s in my heart and soul. I never want to come to you broken and dirty. Because you don’t deserve that. I don’t want to come to you, begging for you to fix me and baby me because that’s not your job and I would hate for you to feel obligated to the task.
So I will sit here silently and patiently in what I’d like to call my “Esther Season” and work on me before God allows you to find me. Yes, you will find me, because I shouldn’t try finding you or chasing after you..
And sweetheart, when this heart of mine is right, our adventure can begin. I want us to cook, serve and read the bible together. I want to laugh and have lazy days on the couch, ignoring the world. I can’t wait for the day the dates and the kids and the grand kids.
I want your desires to be my desires. I want to support each other in whatever craziness God has planned for us.
But I might put up a fight at first or come off a little shy. I may not feel like I deserve you and start pushing you away, but don’t let me go. If you know that I’m the one for you, be patient with me and keep chasing after me. I’ll come to my senses, stop running and hold out my hand for you to hold. Because I’ve missed out on a lot of good things in my life and I don’t want to miss out on another.
I don’t want or need a Hollywood romance because those seem so superficial and frail.
Let’s have one like Isaac and Rebekah, praying over each other when our bodies fail us. Or like Abraham and Sarah, believing that we are never too old to display the amazing promises of God.
I want a biblical marriage like those before us.
But until then, I will live without looking for you because I will be too busy looking at Christ.
That is where you will find me.
See you soon